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Monday, January 29, 2007

Leggo my Ego

On Friday night I arguably had the worst rehearsal of my entire acting career. It was terrible. I have never been that disgusted with myself after a rehearsal. For one thing, I brought in all of my daily baggage with me into the room. For another, it had hit me how quickly opening night was approaching and I began putting an incredible amount of pressure on myself ("Oh no, I can't play anymore, "It has to be good," "What if no one likes me," ect.) Basically, everything that I should not have been thinking about, I was thinking about. And as I progressively sucked more and more and told myself to focus, it became harder and harder to do so.

The worse part is my scene partner was incredibly present and on the ball and I began beating myself up for how selfish I was being, how I was wasting everyone's time, wondering why the hell I was here in this show in the first place, and blah blah blah *whine* blah blah gross

sigh

The good news is that I've gotten that out of my system during a rehearsal and not during a show run. The bad news is we open in two nights.

*Breathe*

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2 Comments:

  • Yeah, breathing would be good.

    Remember: you know what to do.

    Breathe, and listen, and it will happen by itself.

    E

    By Blogger Ereek, at 2:52 PM  

  • Merde!

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 8:59 AM  

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